I ran across this quote on pinterest today and it really did it for me. I haven't blogged or done much of anything for a minute now. I don't really know why. I wish I could say its because I've been so busy doing super cool things but truth is I've been in a funk. I've been busy wasting my time constantly worrying about things that I really shouldn't. Things like struggling to have another baby, wanting Matt to do good in his home stretch of school, wanting my husband's family to like us- well me, wanting Olivia to have a wicked awesome life, things like that. But honestly the more I worry about things, the further into my funk I fall and all that I want accomplished isn't. I think my biggest fault is I'm the type of person that needs something to look forward to. For the last few years I've always had that, I had my wedding, then getting pregnant with Liv, then all of her firsts and big milestones, then moving into our new home, and now I just feel sort of stuck on auto pilot. And when I don't have something to look forward to, I nit pick all the little things around me that really shouldn't be such a big deal. But I'm realizing I really just need to stop and smell the roses because I would rather have easy going with not much going on then a bunch of curve balls and unexpected mishaps. I need to realize how lucky I am to have such a great husband, an adorable little girl, my amazing family, and our super cool friends. So instead of worrying about things out of my control, I need to remeber I have simply done all that I can and that worrying just isnt going to make things better. I'm currently on medication to help us get pregnant so that's all I can do right now, Matt has his final test for school tonight and he has been studying like a mad man so I'm sure he will do great, I (we) have put forth all the effort in wanting to have a decent relationship with Matt's family but the problem isn't lack of trying on our part its on theirs, and I can't make them want to be better so I've done all that I can with them, and as far as Olivia having a wicked awesome life, well she's one of the funniest, cutest, happiest kids I know so I assume we're doing a pretty good job at that :) Speaking of Olivia, she will be 20 months old this month! She is getting so big it just blows me away. She talks so much and knows how to communicate to us what she wants, she understands everything we say to her, loves to make us laugh and be silly, and loves to dance! I found a little mommy and me dance class I'm thinking about starting her in because she seriously is obsessed with dancing. She also is doing really good with this potty business. She goes at least once a day, most days like 2 or 3 times, and when she goes in her diaper she almost always tells us before she does. I'm so in love with her she makes me the happiest mom ever. If I do happen to only be blessed with one child in my life, I could not have dreamed of a better one :) I feel much better now, I really need to make more of an effort with this blogging thing. Here's some pics of what we've been up to lately
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